I cry myself to sleep if i dont take sleeping pills (temazepam) - what can i do?

I just got sick of having anxiety attacks and being up for hours or crying myself to sleep so i have started taking 3 temazepam pills a night.

Even when i was seeing a psych regularly i still had sleeping issues. I love how the temazepam works- i fall asleep in half an hour and i dont wake up through the night. It makes me so relaxed and it numbs all my feelings.

My doctor said i should take one pill per night but one does nothing for me and the max daily dose is 3 so thats what i take because i need that many to work.Temazepam Sleeping Tablets

I have heard the withdrawels are terrible and if you take for a period longer than about a month you can start to become like an unemotional zombie and really slow as well. I like how it makes me not feel anything.

If i had my way i would like someone to hug me while i fall asleep - i used to sleep ok when i was in a relationship. Theres no guy i really want to be with right now and i dont want to share my bed with a guy im not really into - id rather be alone and take pills. If i had a dog that slept on the end of my bed i would be ok too but i live in an apartment so i cant. Im worried they are going to really screw me up.